Birth And Wedding

Well today I am 24 years old. Do I feel different, not really. Mostly thinking to next year when I will be a 25 year old married women! G and I will have been together 8 years by then and I think after the wedding it will be baby time!

25 is a good age to get married and start a family. You are not a kid, but you are not old either. It is really quite ideal. So that is the plan. Turn 25, get hitched, and have lots of babies.

We are still waiting on the house, once we have a definite answer we will be able to put down the payment and start saving for the big day. As of right now, we know it is going to be the end of June next year, we do not have a date yet because we have not put a down payment for the place. We are doing it at Anthony's Ocean View, on the beach with the reception inside and on the patio. The place is beautiful and obviously since we wanted a beach wedding from the start, it is going to be fabulous.

I already am planning of course. Have my dress already, the brides maids dresses picked, songs semi- figured out, and starting to decide on decorations.

My dress, seriously the picture does it no justice, the bodice and train beading is beautiful! I am going to wear my hair either in a side pony with lots of curls or in a fishtail braid. I am also going to be wearing a flower with feathers in hair something similar to the photo below.

Braids maids dresses are beautiful of course! They will be having fishtail braids, and these little star fish clips for their hair. First dress is my MOH the second is the brides maids.

Flower girl dresses. Airi and Maddie are my flower girls and instead of flowers they will be carrying an adorable sign! I am going to see if I can get it with either a sea star or sea shell on it.

The boys are going to wear khaki shorts, white tees and button down open shirts. 

Our invitations are these, seriously how cute! These might be the save the dates too, not 100% sure

As far as decor, I am not 100% sure exactly want I want. I know I want lots of white with pops of blue and sandy color. I also want paper lanterns and twinkle lights mixed in some how.

I want the cake to be a cupcake cake with a normal top tier of the cake. I really like this, but with less seashells and of course with my color shade

The favors are set, I love them. The color is not exact but that is ok by me.

These are pretty cool

I also love this idea for the programs.

Wishing stones, instead of a guest book

For the toasts

Eyes Like Yours

Happy belated birthday Madison Cooper, I love you!

Family Drama Rama: Whose Your Daddy!

Before we get to all the oh so fun stuff, let me start with a little background information. The following conversation took place today, father's day. This is not the first post/comment/ect that has been made about this subject. "Audi" is my grandmother Audrey, my father's mother. She is the one who got "Paul" our bio father back into the cult of Jehovah's Witnesses.

Paul walked out of my sister's life way before mine, and when she was very young. The reason?  Because she did not want to be involved with my father's "religion". When I was 16 and got disfellowshiped for having a boyfriend he proceeded to do them same with me. Josh has always been in the picture since him and my mother got together. He was there through think and thin. While my father paid child support he did not support us in any other way. Nor did he ever do anything extra for us money wise either.

This all started because my sister and I wrote posts on facebook about father's day. Simply saying with loved our dad, Josh and are lucky to have him. Then this happened. 

Like I said we did not bad mouth Paul in any way, all we did was post about Josh. Also note that she only posted three of son's names and she has 5. All of who have abandoned their kids a some point in their lives. In fact two of them have remarried and had other kids and have zero contact with their "old" kids.

This is when she deleted our comments, and wrote a while big thing that I of course forgot to expand. She also deleted me from facebook. Basically when she says in the comment is that the things in the house, and the money that paid for the house was hers. My mom left my father for Josh, and Paul did the best he could under the circumstances. 

This is 100% false. The money for the house was from Paul's father will when he died. It was all suppose to go to him, instead she had the will changed so it all went to her. The only thing she  did was give the down payment for the house, which she later sued for. The furniture was all a gift otherwise why would it be in the house? and my mom did not leave Paul for Josh, they were married for 10 years and had a crap load of problems. They bother dated before they divorced officially so it is a moot point. And Josh is the one paying for the house now, along with providing for his family. 

This is were our cousin Jesse jumps in. We are not close, in fact I do not think we have seen him since we were small children, so he does not know the situation. Notice how defensive Audi is when she thinks the comment is made in regards to her.

Yes everyone makes mistakes but walking away from your kids is a CHOICE not a mistake. It should not be about religion but the sad fact is that it is. Ask him what he would do if his children are disfellowshiped in the future? He will walk away too, that is what Jehovah's Witnesses command. So you end up losing your family, friends, everything. You can not even walk away because if you do that you will be considered dis-associated. Which has the same consequences as being disfellowshiping. 

As for the last comment, I have moved on long ago. I am not longer angry at Paul. He is brainwashed like they are. But what pisses me off is good old grandma saying crap about my father!

Once again I forgot to expand. But basically it is Woe is Audrey. She goes on talk about how her father supposedly did not pick her up from the hospital until she was 3 weeks old, how her mom and dad hated her. blah blah blah. So it is not really about her son, it is all about her.

She does not fight for her kids. She bad mouths them to each other and the grand kids. One minute she is defending Paul the next she is telling me how selfish he is. She was never a "good" mother. All her kids have said so, she was a drunk and very neglectful. Which is why all her kids are screwed up. One is a druggy, a couple are crazy. one was an elder then got the position taken away for wrong doing, and all have become horrible parents. 

Clearly she is not stable, as she is throwing things over an conversation. No she is not being funny, she is serious. I have seen her do this before. 

Pretty much my sister hits the nail on the head. We turned out great thanks to our parents, and grandmother Mamie. We are ending the cycle and will be amazing parents to our kids. We are both doing great in life, and that alone speaks volumes. So as of this time I am washing my hands of all this drama. Why post you say? Well I want people to see what happens in JW families. How this cult tears families apart. Also since she felt the need to delete everything I want to show the truth of what was said, and how she is wrong to be blame full  of a man who has raised her granddaughters extremely well.

Summer Lovin

So far this summer has been great! I mean I know it is technically not summer yet, but it feels like it and that is what counts. Below are some of the moment thus far this summer, with many more to come.

Airi learning how to jump rope, she did not succeed, but she sure had fun trying!

Tyler being Tyler

Maddi's first dip in the pool!

Happy

I am having a rough week. My anxiety is high, my period has been going on for about 2 months (most likely from my PCOS, but the gyno can not see until July 26th) I had blood taken this morning and that always makes me stressed, wedding planes, house planes, my life is a little overwhelming right now. Even with all this going on, my work makes me beyond happy. It is my escape and gives me indescribable joy to make memories for families.

Shots

Personal: Maddi is going to be 1 on the 20th, seriously were does time go? I can not believe how big and cute she is!


Professional: How cute is this!

Oh Mr. G

G,
Sometime I seriously want to ring your neck. You can make my life so complicated and make me feel like you would rather do other things than spend time with me. I know you say this is not true and that you love me more than anything. I believe this 100% , really I do. But can you please try to make a little more time for me?

I know you work hard for us and I know we go shopping together and run errands, but I need for us to spend more quality time together. I love you and therefore want to see you often. So if you could do this for me that would be perfect!

Other than that I think our relationship is going beautifully. We hardly fight anymore and when we do we talk about it. It is almost like we are adults ; ) I pretty much like everything about and am so glad we are going on 8 years together. It is about time we get married, don't you think? Oh wait we are! Next year! That is going to be strange since I feel like we are married already. I mean we have been living in sin for nearly 6 years.

Well I just wanted to tell you that although we both have issues to work on, and things we can do to improve our relationship, I love you. You are pretty much my world (outside my camera)  and I can not wait to be Mrs. Bernier and have lots of babies with you.