Why I love These Things In My Lip

For our anniversary G let me get my snake bites done. This for him was a big step, since he hates piercings and the idea of me getting any. They really didn't hurt getting done. It felt really warm and then felt like a small bee sting. Nothing I could not handle.  The day after the swelling started and that is kind of a pain, but aspirin helped. The biggest thing for me is eating. I decided to go with hoops since when I got my lip done before i had a stud and had a lot of problems with it falling out, biting down on the back, etc. Anyways i can eat ok, just when I am eating something like a sandwich it is hard to fit it in my mouth (that's what she said!). Also when eating something with sauce it can get all over the hoops and make a mess lol.

The bottom line is I got these for me. I did not get them to look cool, or be like someone else. I love them and the way they look. Most of my family and friends hate them and think they look stupid. That is their opinion and does not really bother me. My only real concern with getting these done was how I would look to clients. Once these heal I will put smaller ones in for shoots and meetings. The little studs are very cute and look pretty, so I am not at all worried about it. If someone was really that closed minded I would not want them as a client anyways.


These hoops are a little big, but they had to be since I would swell up. But I love them! What do you guys think?

Another Reason Why Love Is Amazing

This is a poem my amazing fiance wrote for me on our 7th anniversary. I love this boy to death and since restarting counseling we have been doing amazing!

Kala,It was exactly 2,556 days ago that I asked you to be my girlfriend on that Sunday night under the stars above, little did I know you were the angel who would teach me everything about a thing called love. I miss all the times we would hang out on the green or go to Friendly’s to get a bite to eat, you have proven time and time again that you are the only one who makes my life complete.
You know what to say when times are rough and I don’t know what to do, there isn’t a second that goes by when I don’t love you.
Your smile is unmatched and your beauty is like a garden of the most colorful and eloquent flowers, you are always on my mind every minute of every hour.
You are so talented I think you seem to forget how talented you really are and I know out of all the pictures you gracefully take, the ones of yourself are the best by far.
These past seven years I wouldn’t have wanted to spend it with anyone but you and your beautiful ways, every day is a good one knowing that you will be a part of my day.
I want you to know how much you mean to me and there is no one better than you in this world, I am always thankful that I can forever call you my beautiful baby girl.
Happy 7 year anniversary
Love, GraylingYou know what to say when times are rough and I don’t know what to do, there isn’t a second that goes by when I don’t love you.Your smile is unmatched and your beauty is like a garden of the most colorful and eloquent flowers, you are always on my mind every minute of every hour.You are so talented I think you seem to forget how talented you really are and I know out of all the pictures you gracefully take, the ones of yourself are the best by far. These past seven years I wouldn’t have wanted to spend it with anyone but you and your beautiful ways, every day is a good one knowing that you will be a part of my day.I want you to know how much you mean to me and there is no one better than you in this world, I am always thankful that I can forever call you my beautiful baby girl.Happy 7 year anniversaryLove, Grayling

The Post About Us

Today G and I will have been together for 7 years. It feels like forever. I have been with this man since I was 16, he was my first and only everything. It is funny to think about what kind of stuff we use to do when we were younger, to us hanging out down town on the green was the greatest time ever. Since neither of us had a car or a license at the time we walked everywhere, sometimes we would get rides to the movies from my parents. To us though it did not matter because as long as we were together we knew it would be amazing.

Those first few years were both magical and difficult. I finally new what it truly meant to be in love and I also knew the heartbreak that comes with all first loves. We broke up for a month or two because he meant someone else. This was one of the worse experiences of my life. Being 17/18 years old and realizing you might have to live the rest of your life without your soul mate is the worse kind of feeling.

After those few months of hell we got back together and decided to work things out. It took a long time to gain trust back, and even to this day it hurts to think back on those dark days. We made it though and I can honestly say I do not think G would ever cheat on me again ( he never slept with this girl, only kissed and touched). He has grown up and he knows what he wants and what he wants is me.

years 3-5 were interesting. We loved hard and fought hard. This is the time we started living together and building our own intertwining lives together. We were very passionate but on the flip side we were also very fierce. We fought and made up constantly Ironically during these times I never thought we would break up, it just kind of became what we did. Eventually we went to counseling and received the help we needed to deal with our anger.

The past couple of years have been a real growing period for us both as a couple and as individuals. I of course started my own business which is hard and stressful. He went back to school for his degree. Together we are planning a wedding, getting our first house, and just recently got our first "real" car with payments and all. With all of this going on we have not been able to spend as much time together as we use to. This has made us grow apart. We have been in counseling again for 3-4 months and things are starting to look up.

I think a lot of times we take each other for granted  and tend to focus on the negative instead of the positive. No matter what happens we will always love each other, and we are both in this for the very long haul. I know this post tends to focus more on the bumps in our journey, but let me tell you there have been and still are amazing times we share together. The point is to show that relationships are hard. The first year or two will be sweet and romantic than after that you have reality to deal with. This is when you are really put to the test. If you can get through all the bad times and still know the person you are with is the one you want to wake up to every morning, the one who you want to have kids with, and the one who is there to catch you when you fall. Then that is true love at its truest.

We are both imperfect people trying to be perfect for each other. I love you baby will all my heart and soul. Til death, even then I will follow you into the dark.

This Crazy Life Of Mine...

I have not blogged in a week or two. I am in the middle of writing a few blogs, but have been super busy, stressed, etc. It always seems my life is either really boring and dull or there is a million things going on. Last week my grandma had to be rushed to the E.R. She woke up and could not respond, was breathing funny, and vomited all over herself. I was scared to death and thought she was having a stroke.

After spending the whole day in the E.R. they finally did the C.T scan and it came back clear. This did not rule out a stroke, but it did rule out a major one or any brain bleed. Finally at about 830 pm they told us her CO2 levels in her blood ( what you exhale when you breath out) where crazy high. Normal levels are 30-40 hers was over 100. This was basically starving her brain and all other organs of oxygen.

In order to get her levels back to normal they had to put her on a C-Pap machine which is this mask that forces air into your lungs and helps you breath. This is what a lot of people with sleep apnea have to use at night so they don't stop breathing. They told us if this did not work they would have to intubate her ( sedate her and put a tube in her mouth down to her lungs) we did not want this for obvious reasons and because with her health conditions it would be very hard to get her off of it and she could possibly die.

Needless to say it was one of the scariest times of my life. For those of you who do not know my grandma is my everything. She is the one person who I can talk to about anything and she is the one who basically raised me. I would be lost without her. I in fact have lived with her all my life, and not she lives with G and I as well.

At 11pm they brought her up the ICU at this point she was doing better was able to have a conversation and seemed life she was getting back to her old self. They ran her blood work again to check her levels and they had dropped to 80 so thankfully we were going in the right direction. At this time my sister and I went home and it was about 3am. That was the longest day of my life and that whole weekend when she was in the hospital felt like one long day.

Finally on Wednesday she came home. She is doing a million times better and is actually doing awesome with not smoking. Both G and I agreed we were not buying her cigarettes anymore. She is also eating better and I think this was a wake up call for her to take better care of herself.

Other than that G and I's 7th anniversary is on Monday. I am not sure what exactly we are doing we have a few things in mind but it all depends on the weather. This topic is actually one of the posts I am working on and hope to finish soon. So for now I am going to try to get some sleep since both Airi and Tyler and here. I know they will be keeping me busy and yelling all day tomorrow lol. :)