Today G and I will have been together for 7 years. It feels like forever. I have been with this man since I was 16, he was my first and only everything. It is funny to think about what kind of stuff we use to do when we were younger, to us hanging out down town on the green was the greatest time ever. Since neither of us had a car or a license at the time we walked everywhere, sometimes we would get rides to the movies from my parents. To us though it did not matter because as long as we were together we knew it would be amazing.
Those first few years were both magical and difficult. I finally new what it truly meant to be in love and I also knew the heartbreak that comes with all first loves. We broke up for a month or two because he meant someone else. This was one of the worse experiences of my life. Being 17/18 years old and realizing you might have to live the rest of your life without your soul mate is the worse kind of feeling.
After those few months of hell we got back together and decided to work things out. It took a long time to gain trust back, and even to this day it hurts to think back on those dark days. We made it though and I can honestly say I do not think G would ever cheat on me again ( he never slept with this girl, only kissed and touched). He has grown up and he knows what he wants and what he wants is me.
years 3-5 were interesting. We loved hard and fought hard. This is the time we started living together and building our own intertwining lives together. We were very passionate but on the flip side we were also very fierce. We fought and made up constantly Ironically during these times I never thought we would break up, it just kind of became what we did. Eventually we went to counseling and received the help we needed to deal with our anger.
The past couple of years have been a real growing period for us both as a couple and as individuals. I of course started my own business which is hard and stressful. He went back to school for his degree. Together we are planning a wedding, getting our first house, and just recently got our first "real" car with payments and all. With all of this going on we have not been able to spend as much time together as we use to. This has made us grow apart. We have been in counseling again for 3-4 months and things are starting to look up.
I think a lot of times we take each other for granted and tend to focus on the negative instead of the positive. No matter what happens we will always love each other, and we are both in this for the very long haul. I know this post tends to focus more on the bumps in our journey, but let me tell you there have been and still are amazing times we share together. The point is to show that relationships are hard. The first year or two will be sweet and romantic than after that you have reality to deal with. This is when you are really put to the test. If you can get through all the bad times and still know the person you are with is the one you want to wake up to every morning, the one who you want to have kids with, and the one who is there to catch you when you fall. Then that is true love at its truest.
We are both imperfect people trying to be perfect for each other. I love you baby will all my heart and soul. Til death, even then I will follow you into the dark.