Grayling and I have decided to get married next march in the Bahamas. We will be having a small wedding with family who will join us on a week long cruise to Florida and the Bahamas. The wedding is going to be on the beach and will hopefully be as beautiful as it sounds.
The only downside is not our whole families will be able to come. This part sucks and makes me sad, but I can not turn down the chance to have a dream wedding. So I think we will plan on having a small reception when we get back for everyone. We will be having dinner afterwards on the ship, but since not a whole lot of people are going we are not having a formal reception on board.
As of right now between 13-18 people are going. I will update more as things progress. If you want to stay in the loop as far as different ideas I have add/follow onPinterest.
I have waited a long time to get the tattoos I want, partly because of money and partly because I wanted to make sure they were something I really wanted. When I was 18 I wanted to get a care bear with my name underneath it, seriously if I had that now I would shoot myself... Now being 23 and starting to really realize what is truly important to me in life, I think I really know what I want and know how I want to express it on my body.
First up is piercings, to me anyways piercings do not have a special meaning really, they are just something I like and therefore want. The good thing about them is for the most part if you do not like them just take them out.
Snake bites
these are semi-special as I will be getting them with Jocey and we will be matching.
Industrial, Targus, forward helix, and 3 helixs
Obviously not all in the same ear.
Gauging
I am currently doing this and since my ear lobes are huge I am going to pierce above and below the gauges so I can still wear regular earrings as well.
Now on to the tattoos.
First let me start with lyrics and quotes. These will all be done in black ink in cursive writing.
Magic Is Infinite-wrist
this is obviously my blog tagline and is something I came up with a few years ago, it is a reminder to always look for the extraordinary elements in life.
I will follow you into the dark-back of neck
This is a title/lyrics from death cab for cutie. Besides the fact that I love the song, it also has multiple meanings for me. I think listening to the lyrics will give you a better idea of why, instead of me explaining it to you.
Love is forever-other wrist or forearm
self explanatory also another lyric from one of my favorite bands and songs Neutron star collision-muse.
Before you my life was like a moonless night-chest or front shoulder
this is one of my favorite quotes from twilight and completely reminds me of G.
Now for artwork
3 stars-ear
I want 3 stars on or behind my ear to represent Jocey, Tyler, & Airi. As you all know these kids are my life and are truly my stars in the night sky. I want them to pick their color and very faintly have their initials in the stars.
Dandelion-chest or leg
This is going to beautiful! it is going to be a dandelion being blown and the little fluffys are going to turn into birds.The dandelion represents wishing and dreams and the birds freedom and peace.
Lilac-leg
This one probably has one of the most and special meanings. It was my nana's favorite flower and is also my grandma's. I am gong to put a white ribbon around it and in the ribbon will say Nana.
Angel wings-back
I have always wanted angel wing tattoos. I use to want full back but now I think i want it to look like they are emerging from my should blades.
As for right now that is it, of course I am sure there will be more in the future.
You are sixteen, a baby. Right now life is good, or so you think. You have your faith, friends, a new job, and your father who is the only person in the world who knows what hell your mother puts you through. Right now you have it all figured out. God is on your side and all is well. Yes school sucks but who cares you have tons of friends who completely understand you and would do anything for you or so you think. In one year your life is going to be turned upside down, everything that meant so much to you will be snatched away, and you will finally understand that every decision has its sacrifices.
This year will be a whirl wind of change, love, and pure pain. I wish I could tell you that you will be ok, the the truth is it is going to take years for you to get it together. Years to know it is not your fault. I want to tell you that even though you "hate" your mother she is going to be the one to help you through this along with the rest of your non-believing family, but at this point you are naive and so caught up in the fantasy of a perfect little JW life. In about a year this will change.
You will meet someone who is going to change your life forever, who will bring joy, pain, and all the important firsts. He will be your everything, the reason for breathing. You will not see his faults at first. He will be pure perfection, but in time his ugly side will show and you will know like you he is no angel and has demons in his closet. Yet somehow you will work it out. You do not know it now but he will break your heart, then he will put it together again. This will be a pattern for a long time. Finally when you are 23 years old you have gained back enough power to not give a fuck what anyone thinks including him. Yes you still love him more than anything but it is not unhealthy love anymore. He is still your rock, but you are your own archer and know you can do it without him if you have to.
Now back to you my little one. I wish I can take you by the hand and make all the right choices for you, I wish I can take away all the pain that is to come, and more than anything I wish I could shield you from one of the most horrible time periods you will go through, The time when you lose everything including your beloved father. However I can not. The choice you will make is going to make you strong. It will take many years for you to clime out of the depression and to finally get it right. don't worry I am working on it for us. We are not 100% yet, but we are close to it. Life is finally better and we are getting there.
Just remember life is hard, it will always be hard. The only thing we can do is roll with the punches with the biggest smile on our faces. So stay strong and seriously stop cutting yourself for attention, it is getting old. But you will learn this soon enough.
I am not dead, so my lovely followers no need to worry lol. I have been busy and lazy basically. For some reason I will get in these moods were I will go weeks or months without blogging. I do not know why, it is just how I get.
Anyways here is the latest news. I am still building up my photography portfolio, I had a couple of shoots I had to reschedule due to my stupid car needing to be fixed, but hopefully the clients will kindly agree to try again next month. However I have done two very successful shoots so far and loved every minute of it. It kind of sucks because I was hoping everyone would jump on board for free photos, I mean everyone I know loves my work, but it just seems a little hard to get clients. Hopefully when I get out there more and start making a name for myself this will change.
Last week I started to gauging my ears, today I just put in the 12gs (for those of you not familiar with gauging it is when you stretch your ear holes. The smaller the number the bigger the hole. Most standard ear piercings start at an 18 or 16) I plane on going to at least a 4 or a 2. I do not want them to be too big but around dime size or a little bigger. I read that it can be very painful but so far it really is not. I think as long as you go slow and do not stretch to fast it is pretty much painless. You are suppose to leave the tapers in for 3-4 weeks before moving down a size but my ears seems to stretch easy so i did a week from 14s to 12s and will go to 10s in about a week 1/2 to 2 weeks.
Last but not least there is a new member added to our family. Her name is Madison Cooper and she is my new baby cousin! She is seriously too cute! For those of you who know of Jocey she is her sister and looks just like her when she was little! She was born on June 20th and was 7lbs she is now a month old and is 10lbs! such a little porker lol. I got to do her hospital and newborn photos here are a couple, to see the rest click here.:)
