A Little update I am still feeling like crap....Ugh I just can not shake this cold thingy that is going on. I am very tired and all I want to do is sleep and chill. I think my Thalassemia is also becoming an issue. Since I have been doubling up on my metaformin I have been getting my periods more regularly ( I usually go month without getting one & when I do it is mostly spotting) This is a good thing in that my PSOD is being treated and having children in the future will be easier, but now my periods are really heavy and this makes my red cell count even lower hence the tiredness and feeling blah.
Also because of above I have not taken pictures in like a week and a half! That is horrible for me, but I have not been in the mood for anything but just hanging out and reading.
Speaking of reading lol, here are some amazing books you all need to take a look at.....
This book is amazing! All my life I have been interested obsessed with ancient Egypt. Now this story takes place mostly in Rome, but the book is beautiful. If you like historical fiction, coming of age stories, or love stories with lots of action this book is for you!
Here is a summary
The marriage of Marc Antony and Cleopatra is one of the greatest love stories of all time, a tale of unbridled passion with earth-shaking political consequences. Feared and hunted by the powers in Rome, the lovers choose to die by their own hands as the triumphant armies of Antony’s vengeful rival, Octavian, sweep into Egypt. Their three orphaned children are taken in chains to Rome, but only two— the ten-year-old twins Selene and Alexander— survive the journey. Delivered to the household of Octavian’s sister, the siblings cling to each other and to the hope that they will return one day to their rightful place on the throne of Egypt. As they come of age, they are buffeted by the personal ambitions of Octavian’s family and court, by the ever-present threat of slave rebellion, and by the longings and desires deep within their own hearts.
If I Stay
This is one of the best YA books I have read in awhile. The story is both heartbreaking and uplifting at the same time. I think is book is for everyone! It deals with life,death,love, and the human experience
In a single moment, everything changes. Seventeen-year- old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall riding along the snow-wet Oregon road with her family. Then, in a blink, she finds herself watching as her own damaged body is taken from the wreck... A sophisticated, layered, and heart-achingly beautiful story about the power of family and friends, the choices we all make—and the ultimate choice Mia commands.
Also do not forget about the giveaways that are still going on listed above and new photo contest will be posted tomorrow!
People in general always have something they have to forgive themselves for. Of course some people have bigger issues to forgive in themselves than others. I always have little things I need to forgive. Like if I yell at someone for no reason other then being upset or in bad mood. Or when I know something has to get done but I am too tired or feeling blah to want to do it. Over time I do forgive myself for these small transgressions.
However there is one huge "thing" that I will probably never be able to forgive myself for. I am not going to go into detail as to what it is because even though I am an open book this is just way to personal and sad for me. Only 3 people know about it and soon I am thinking of telling Jessica and Amber my two only true friends. The reason for not telling people is many. I feel some will not understand how much it hurts, others will be too sad, and then more will brush it off and say there is always next time.
I also feel like it was my fault, and although it might have happened anyways I still and will always all the what ifs? in my head. My heart hurts everyday and it has changed me completely. When something you want to badly is taken from you and knowing that somehow it could have been your fault, how do you ever deal with that? Or even start to get over it?
I want so badly to tell my mother, grandmother, and a few other people, but I can't. I am a coward and do not want to face it again. It is buried deep within my heart and soul. I try to keep it deep within, but when I see others in the same situation I was in but they get what I wanted I hate that person. I know it is not their fault but my head screams how unfair it is and how much better I would be.
I can not even write anymore because everything is coming back, like a recurring nightmare that won't go away. I'm sorry Avery..
Baby Rock Apparel is an awesome site that sells edgy and cute clothing for your little ones. They have tons of shirts, tutus, accessories, and more to choose from. As some of you already know I am not into traditional culture. I like to be different, everything from music to style. I am my own person. Which is why I love this shop it is perfect for parents, aunts, etc who feel the same way and want to dress their little ones is the cutest edgiest baby gear.
I picked out the red and black tutu. It is rocker chick adorable and perfect for Airi. She is such a little tomboy and right now is going through a I don't wanna wear clothes faze. So getting her in this was a little bit of a hassle, but once I did she looked beautiful!
I love the colors, it reminds me of the Twilight series lol. Once she is a little older I am going to have to do some Twilight themed photos in her tutu. The sizing is perfect I was worried it would not fir her since she is to tiny for her age but it fit like a glove, and it is made of stretchy material so it will grow with her. I love this store and will definitely be ordering things from them in the future.
My Lip Stuff is seriously amazing! I am telling you these are the best lip balms I have ever had. I was lucky enough to be sent three samples ( Candy cane, Cinnamon roll, and Partridge in a pear tree) all three are amazing. My personal favorite is Candy Cane it is just yummy and the smell is to die for. Really all three smell like the real thing! even Partridge in a pear tree smells like pear mixed with Christmas! It is really crazy, but true! Plus they all feel amazing on your lips, they are so creamy and soft it is heaven.
Now wanna here something really cool?My Lip Stuff has over 500 flavors! They literally have everything from Monkey Farts & Screw Driver (the drink) to Strawberry Cheesecake & Yoga...I would say that covers everything you can imagine!
They are also cruelty free, which means they do not test on animals. This is something very important to me. I believe animals should NEVER be tested on, and to have a company who feels the same way and makes an amazing product is awesome.
Thank you everyone for entering this week's Wishful Pictures contest! It was a fun week because I loved all the pictures! I have also decided something. Instead of this being a once a week contest, I am going to do it bi-weekly. This way you guys have more time to take some awesome pictures and enter, and also I think it will be easier for me to keep this contest on a steady schedule. So the next contest will start this Saturday. Now on to the winners congrats to all :)