Feminist

I hate the word feminist , to be this word is just as degrading as being called a whore or a bitch. I am a female and I embrace everything that comes along with this. I love being "girly" and I love being a "tomboy". Why do women who want the same equality as men feel that they need a word to separate themselves from the rest of womankind? WE are women and therefore should embrace this term. I love being a women, we are the givers of life, we are the reason this world has not gone completely to hell, and we have a god given gift to nurture and heal. Feminist do not want to be equal to men, but instead want to blur gender lines and completely erase what it means to be a women. Females may be more physically weaker than men, but in almost every other way we are stronger, including emotionally and spiritually. You never here of men's intuition and I would love to see a man endure the pain of labor and birth. "feminist" think the following.......

• If you choose to raise a family instead of work you are setting back the women's rights movement about 150 years
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• A pro-life female is a religious nut who is going along with what her husband is telling her to do
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• if you are in /or enjoy porn, strip clubs, or any other form of adult entertainment you are oppressing and exploiting women.

I am a proud strong women, and a real feminist would support any women's choice and life style as long it is one that will make her happy. I am pro-life, I am in love with an amazing man, and I support all women, unlike feminist I do not pick a choose what women's rights they want to fight for, I support and fight for them all.If a women wants to be a stay at home mom and raise her children with religious values, let her. If a women wants to be a stripper and be sexually active let her.

yes I am pro-life and some may ask how can you be pro-life and support women's rights? My answer is this...abortion hurts more women than it does help them, secondly I support all women including the unborn ones, and lastly there are so many forms of  birth control now a days and  women need to be educated and realize there is no need to even have unwanted pregnancies in the first place, and yes i do view the morning after pill as a form of birth control. We as women are strong and if we can all learn to band together instead of fighting amongst ourselves there is nothing we can not accomplish. So to all your so-called hard-core feminist stop being man hating, abortion loving, sad excuses for women,and step up and embrace yourself as a female and then learn to embrace all other women! and help those women who do not have a voice and are truly being oppressed.

My Happily Never After

I am not going to lie and like me the majority of people do not want a happily ever after. What fun is in a life time filled with no fighting, drama, or hot angry make-up sex? Maybe I am just more in tuned with the dark side of human nature but non the less it is human nature all the same. Humans thrive on both positive and negative energy. If we didn't we would all die of absolute boredom. Look at the media including movies, t.v, etc. What makes a good production, I can say for certain it is not a bunch of happy-go-lucky people running around singing songs about rainbows.




We as humans are entertained by violence, action, and drama. This is why all stories end when all the good things in life start happening because no one cares!!! We want the characters to be happy but we do not really want to here about it. Don't get me wrong I want to live a long happy life, however I would like to have a bit of spice added once in a while. That is what I love about My Relationship the majority of the time we are like 50 year olds, but we know how to add the flare when things get to boring. We fight-We make-up, We hate-We love, there is absolutely nothing wrong with this. We should all embrace our own imperfections because in the end it will make everyone better more interesting people. remember no one wants a stepford wife, and no one really wants a happily ever after because that is when the story ends.....

Depressed

I suffer from depression and anxiety, I understand that a lot of people experience this and go through it every day, but when you are the own it is happening to you honestly feel all alone. Like you are the only person is the world who feels trapped and feels like the sky is crashing down. There are some days were I feel like screaming and then crawling back into bed because I think what the hell is the point? Then there are other days where I seem to be ok and get by somehow.

My biggest fear is that there is something major wrong with me, for example the C word, Cancer. I always think every little pain and ache is the big C, In my head I know how illogical it sounds and is, but there is a part of me that really believes it! It is like I am trapped in my own head, no one seems to truly understand....I hate feeling like I am going to die and I honestly don't know what is worse feeling like I am going to die or knowing that it is all in my head. Yes I am on medication Zoloft and xanax to be exact, but even though they control it, it does not eradicate it completely.

I want to be normal or at least have some normalcy in my life......I want to work and go to school but how can i function when I don't know how my mood will be from day to day?I am so scared of facing people and the real world, I know they view me was strange, and it sucks. Sometimes I wish I could blend in and be like all these people I see on tv, but I guess I am not willing to put a side the values and traits that make me Kala. Obviously I am not talking about the depression and  anxiety, but i am talking more so about my view on the world and people. I am not going to lie ,I am not an outgoing person I am very cautious  I do not trust or even like most people at first. I need to get the feel of them first and then I determine if I will open up with them or not. ok enough for now......